It has taken me a really long time to complete this post because to be honest I didn't want my first post to be an unplanned stream-of-conscious, though if you follow this blog you'll definitely get a healthy dose of that.
After many years of avoidance, I am finally starting seminary. Initially I thought I could delay going, or that it was a phase that would pass. After retracing my steps in life, however, I can see that in many ways, I was built for this life. From mediocrity in potential-careers-turned-hobbies to disapproved condo purchases, I can see how all my successes and failures have led to this.
Sometimes I look at facebook and I see old friends and wonder about this decision. They seem to be making "good" money and doing "cool" things and I wonder, "what if i was that way" or "why couldn't that have be me?" Seems reasonable right? But honestly, if i was even slightly different, I'd be completely different. It's like this: if i were _____er or ____er or whatever I wouldn't be exactly who I am, equipped in this specific way, for this particular call...if that makes sense. So, to be honest it's reassuring. What I dont quite know yet is what life will look like after seminary.
Over the quarter century that I've existed, I've heard whispers about what God has in store for me and I'm anxious to see what's next. I see the potential for destruction, but I am also excited about the potential for good. Now I just need to do my part to fulfill that potential for good. What/how I do in seminary will have a direct affect on my future ministry work. So it begins: My life as a seminarian.
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